A film director thinking..

Stability achieved. Landed a job. Now what? What a basic fundamental way of living life. Nothing against it, in-fact changing my previous opinions about it. It is the most comfortable way of living life. A stress-free method of achieving stability. There will surely be some work pressure coming in from peers and all sorts of other things but peace of mind at the end of the day is guaranteed. A sound sleep? Maybe.  I have started working as a Producer at Josh Talks. The job title also contains Video Editor but I have only properly edited one video. Apart from that, I have mostly been organizing shoots in and around the country. One thing is for sure, this company has an extremely productive mindset and these two months feel like two years in terms of experience. Budgeting, high-level productions and travel.  BUT.. Threshold for everything. I feel like I've done everything here and it is time to move on. Josh surprises me everyday. It tells me this is not it, there's more and th...

In my many attempts at discovering the root of that unpredictable headache that keeps shouting - "Hey boy, you are not satisfied with your life." I never seemed to have pinpointed a way of getting out of it. Sure, meditation helps. But when the actual menace arrives, your head's not even thinking about meditation, how's that? All it thinks about is 'the things that could have been'.   I should have made a film by now, should have invited my teachers to a premiere that I promised them. Those big words from the mouth of a teenager who didn't know the reality. Okay okay, so depressing. Let's slow down a little. I still aim to achieve all those things. It's just that it might take a little more time. And no pressure seriously, because that is the last thing we need, right?  Photo by Aubree Herrick on Unsplash It's very hard to make a good film that audiences can remember for generations to come. And working on them must be a tedious task as well. ...

  Ab bas laga hua hun kal se kuch behtar banane me aur kal ko behtar banane me.  Far from the thinking mind. Not far, just slowly trying to loosen my grasp on it via meditation. I have no expectations anymore. I am simply in the 'be'. Went to Kolkata last week, met with an accident. Our (Mayank and I's) scooter slipped. The surface was wet and there had to be a tram track there. We all know the horrors of uneven surfaces. Always slow your vehicle down to a speed of 10km/h. Don't even think about applying the brakes! Just pass through it and if you do slip, hands up front and thank yourself for wearing a helmet. My head hit the side walk and I was so grateful for wearing one even though I was sitting behind Mayank. He's not a good driver and he knows it now. With so much patience, he listened to what I had to offer and I am sure with time he learns to slow his vehicle down on a speed-breaker. He reminded me of Geet. Even he just budum-bummed through all the speed bre...

Photo by Cristofer Jeschke on Unsplash रात के पौने दो बज रहे हैं और मैं जग रहा हूँ। ऐसा बहुत दिनों बाद हो रहा है। कारण? मैं फिल्म बना रहा हूँ। एक शॉर्ट फिल्म ही है फिलहाल तो, लेकिन इसको लेकर जो अरमान हैं वो शॉर्ट नहीं। मैं चाहता हूँ इस बार मेरी जनता जो देखे, उसका कण-कण उन्हें लुभाए। मैं काफी मेहनत कर रहा हूँ इस दफा। तन्मय और रजत जो कि मेरे स्कूल के मित्र हैं, उन्होंने मेरा खुली बाहों के साथ स्वागत किया अपने छोटे से घर जैसे ऑफिस में। यहाँ जो कोई आता है, वो ख़ुशी लेकर जाता है। तन्मय अपने भाई की देख रेख भी करता है और आपको हसाने में भी कोई कसर नहीं छोड़ता।  हम लोग तन्मय के ही घर पर मेरी अगली फिल्म या यूँ कहूं कि हमारी अगली फिल्म का निर्माण कर रहे हैं। शॉट डिवीज़न से लेकर स्टोरीबोर्डिंग सब पर भली भाँती काम चल रहा है। रजत ने आशीष दोभल जी से मिलवाया। ये फाइन ट्यून्ड नाम की कंपनी चलाते हैं। इनका भी काफी बड़ा हाथ रहा है इस फिल्म को हकीकत बनाने में। अभी बनी नहीं है लेकिन बन जानी चाहिए। पैसा लगेगा...  जहाँ तक है मुझे ऐसा लगता है २५ हज़ार तक की धन राशि जुटानी पड़ेगी। कोई आईडिया नही है पैसे कहा...

 क्यों भूखा हूं? क्या हो गया ऐसा? AQI levels dekhe hain Delhi-NCR ke? Something needs to be done and it needs to be done faster than the pace that is already being used. Also, meditating is fun. I wish I could do it all the time except that is not possible but I learned today that it actually helps in gaining physical changes in your body especially your brain. Btw, running increases blood flow into the brain that is why your face becomes red. Random, okay. Back to meditation, there is this app - Headspace. The inventor of this awesome app is someone who has been to Himalayas and has sat down with the monks and made it easier for us to understand the path to what it is to actually sit down and do 'nothing'. You heard me right. Nothing! Absolutely nothing. When was the last time you did that? I did it a couple of hours ago. Andy Puddicombe's voice can do wonders. You just sit there and let him guide you through the darkness and into the light. A little too dramatic than it n...