Flow state

"You are blessed if you live the patterned life, the breakers are left with a lot to mend, so they carelessly walk the path of fire thinking the heat will put everything back in shape."

It has been over an year now in Bombay, as they like to call it. 'They' are the people of this industry. The Indian Film Industry.

Enabling the flow state, more frequently these days. Getting into it and then not getting out until the sun sets seems to add up to the most productive of days. I have started actively writing and narrating my stories to industry experts (including directors and producers) as well as trusted individuals and local folk. I am finding a balance of the right approach in which I am able to express my vision to people in a way that seems exciting (to me and the listener).

I am realizing how important it is for me to sustain an emotion for a longer duration, and I need to play on my strengths. I can feel it coming closer and closer, day by day. The first film. 

I need to have my head in the right place and be respectful of others opinion. Why does this suddenly sound like a pledge that I am writing?

Need to move around the rocks of obstacles, like water, eventually getting to the destination.

Observing the world around me, I have evolved in a variety of ways. In the way I talk to people. In how I enjoy conversations with strangers. How I like to study my environment. 

Whenever I am feeling low, stepping out and meeting someone new (or old) seems to solve everything. Movement is life, so they said rightly. This time I don't remember who 'they' are. I remember listening to this somewhere on Instagram maybe.

I will be traveling to Honk Kong this December, third international trip. Just for fun, but brother from another mother states that we should utilize it to its full potential. He is very excited about such things. Getting the juice out of opportunities we create for ourselves. He likes to stay utterly motivated about cracking the code of the matrix. I learn from him a lot.

But, I need to cut down. I need to get my financial gains up, to clear my emotional state of the worry. Once that box is ticked, I can think about these trips again. Until then, I am thinking of reflecting inwards and exploring my own country till then. 

Recently I met Bikram, he used to work at Josh Talks with me. I narrated my story 'Project JKG' to him and he told me a couple of things that I liked. He also revealed how he travelled for one year to eleven different places under a lakh! I was like whoa! This is something I am looking for, to gain new experience, meet new people, and discover places because sometimes in order to write, one needs to start absorbing new things, only then can we truly reflect. On the pages, there should be a part of me, like a signature embedded deep into the soul of the script that audiences should come to recognize. I am confident now, that I am inching towards it. 

I don't like to get the weight of things on my shoulders and keep it very gentle. I realized while working on 'Hisaab' the last feature film that I worked on as an AD, that stressful situations don't yield the best results. The DA on that film, Sharrman used to recognize when I was stressed and used to advise me to take a breather and come back to the problem with a steady head. Because, in that moment of suffering, work usually is mismanaged. The equation is wrongly solved, creating a conundrum in the near future. He was so right.

The best remedy for anger is time. Staying silent should be the approach. Usually it settles down within minutes, you need to step on the right ladder in your mind. I am learning each day, and aspire to be gentle and calm in my approach. 

Chalo, I think I am gonna go call a friend and see if they'd like to hang out.